Listen to Special Episode 180, my exclusive interview with Carlos Rodriguez
Reading The Ugly Underneath opened my eyes to a side of criminal investigation rarely explored in true crime: the lasting trauma carried by the investigators and prosecutors who pursue those who prey on children. Rodriguez does not simply recount cases; he reveals the emotional aftermath that follows the people tasked with confronting humanity’s darkest corners.
Law enforcement's mental wellness is rarely discussed, yet Carlos Rodriguez bravely breaks the silence, addressing it with courage, candor, and compassion. Drawing from 25 years with the Washington State Patrol, Rodriguez blends professional experience with deeply personal motivation: he entered the field after a drunk driving accident killed a family member, driven by the desire to save lives. What he never expected was that many of the lives he would fight to protect would belong to toddlers, children, and teenagers pulled into the horrific shadows of child exploitation.
The Ugly Underneath is difficult, emotional, and profoundly authentic, written in a way that makes an unfamiliar and uncomfortable subject immediately relatable. Rodriguez asks readers to look beyond the headlines and consider the exhausting, mentally damaging toll this work takes on law enforcement members who must witness the horrors of trafficking and sexual abuse, then return home expected to function as spouses, parents, and neighbors. Too often, that pain is locked away, surfacing as withdrawal, drinking, isolation, or the slow deterioration of family life.
As the host of the Murder Shelf Book Club podcast, I have read an enormous collection of true crime books, yet none has covered this topic with the same raw honesty, urgency, and compassion. Carlos Rodriguez is starting vital conversations across the country—and, truly, around the world—about the unseen wounds carried by those who investigate crimes against children. I highly recommend The Ugly Underneath for its incredible insight, its humanity, and its willingness to confront a painful subject we all need to understand, especially parents, adults, caregivers, and teachers.



































